“Trust in the LORD with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He will make your paths straight.” (Prov. 3:5-6)
I tend to be the kind of person who likes to figure everything out. This is both a blessing and a curse. A blessing in that I feel I am able to help people understand things that are difficult to understand. A curse in that I prefer answers, to questions.
Of course, the problem is that God does not always provide answers to every question. There are some things about which He is strangely silent. And sometimes these things are important to us. Sometimes they are the things that are right in front of us – things that are so prevalent, in our lives, that we really want answers and we want them sooner rather than later!).
These are the times that test our faith. Are we going to trust in God… or are we going to trust in what we can figure out about our situation?
Here’s the thing about trusting God… When trust is really required, those are the moments in our lives when it seems like God is indifferent to our needs. He seems distant. Detached. Somewhere else – when we need Him closest. They are the times when your really start to think that this faith thing just might be a waste of our time.
Decision time… In our time of need… Turn to God… even though He seems to be nowhere near. OR turn away… depend on our own understanding – come up with our own best solution — and just go with it.
These are the moments that define our lives. They are the moments that lead us to the Heart of God, or cause us to drift away from the safe harbor of His love.
Here’s what I have learned about God… He loves those moments.
Because He knows that if we are going to be the kind of people He needs us to be, we are going to have to face our doubts and fears, and choose to trust Him anyway – even when it may seem that He just might be failing us.
We may have every reason to turn away from Him… but we choose to stay anyway. We choose to cast our cares upon Him. We choose to embrace the unknown, that we might know Him better… and more personally.
That is the thing about faith. It has to become real to us… personally. It can’t continue to be someone else’s story… or someone else’s miracle. It has to become OUR story… OUR miracle. We have to have first-hand experience that God is real, that God is good, that God is with us… even when it may seem like He isn’t.
It all comes down to our hearts. The core of who we are. If we are going to trust in the Lord with all our hearts, we have to abandon our own understanding, our own self-sufficiency, our own ability.
We have to choose to fall back into the faithful Arms of a loving God. And that kind of trust can only come from our hearts. Only a heart convinced of His love, and submitted to His care, can acknowledge His presence in our lives. And only when we KNOW that He is present in our lives can we live as we were meant to live.
Prayer focus: God, in my times of doubt and need, help me to exercise a complete trust in Your love and care for me.